SAFELY HOME
***You can watch a video slideshow of our Paris portion of the trip here
We are safely home enjoying our surroundings in Madison. As
jet lag wears off some of the images, memories and perspectives on our trip
become clearer. Vacations are, by nature, snippets of idealized dreams drawn
into shape though planning, anticipated wildly for months, and then experienced
at a higher rate of consciousness and intensity than normal waking work week
hours. And so with Paris and England: each moment strongly felt, each place
conceptualized, and realized within the context of our own desire to fly free.
Being in England involved seeing friends and family, returning to the place of
my birth, experiencing the schism in my consciousness between those diverse
parts of my self; of childhood and adulthood, of culture and society, of growing
and aging.
Paris offered a glimpse of romance, art, and civilized city
living: the most visited place on earth, the City of Light, the sophisticated
center of modernity. We were able to relax and enjoy the sights and scenes, the
cafes and the architecture, the market places and the museums, the fashion and
the history. Oh! - and the pastries.
While I long for the familiar throbbing pulse of the city, I
can also feel overwhelmed by the noise and the crowds. Back in Madison it is
easy to return to the everyday activities of sitting in front of the computer
and staying at home. I miss the unknown, the thrill of not knowing what to
expect, the excitement in the challenge of trying to figure out something new:
how to negotiate a foreign language, using the Metro, finding a decent restaurant,
and so on.
Finding meaning or order in life events takes a little time
and some internal processing. I know that I am thankful for having this time,
and for seeing my nephew Owen again and appreciating his openness, warmth and
talent.
***You can view a video of Owen playing a Nirvana song here
***and playing Flamenco style guitar here
I am glad that I was able to re-connect with my brother Alan, and my
friends Jonathan, and Spencer. Time strengthens these bonds and is felt in the
presence of these loved ones despite the times between contacts. Visiting
places of my childhood in the East End brought about an emotional turbulence, a
thumbnail of the disparity and tension that I carry with me all the time. Paris
drew Cindy and I together as we were finally alone in the most romantic city in
the world. There was so much to see and enjoy along the way.
So now we can begin to plan our next trip. But it is also
important to remember to be wherever we are and to fully take in that which we
are offered in the place where we are.